When she's not making music, dancing, or building websites, Dawn writes personal essays and cultural commentary on TV, film, and music. She's been published in TechCrunch, The Learned Fangirl, Uncanny Magazine, and more - she spent three years as a Section Editor for RELEVANT Magazine and was a contributor to Invisible 3, a collection of essays and poems about representation in science fiction and fantasy edited by Jim C. Hines and Mary Anne Mohanraj.
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Those of us who leave one country for another at an early age recognize the beats: You’re one person, a whole, unconflicted person with a whole, unconflicted family that belongs - until being literally assimilated as a child. You learn to adjust, but eventually - perhaps as a child, perhaps as an adult - you’re no longer a single identity. You fracture into multiple identities and no longer fit anywhere - not the Federation, not the Borg, not Singapore, not the US.
This fracturing brings gifts. It makes you aware of how much you can choose—you see defaults and structures in a way few others do. You watch for cues, automatically adapt to new situations.
But it’s also trauma that you don’t fully recognize for decades.
A Work of Art is a Refuge and Resistance
Uncanny Magazine, April 2017
In college, I was the Asian American who was deemed “too white” for the Asian Americans; they said I listened to the wrong kind of music and faulted my inability to speak Chinese (long a casualty of the final international move). I’m the American—a naturalized citizen at sixteen—who’s too foreign for the Americans; when I leave Chicago, so many still ask me where I’m “from” and try to speak to me in the first Asian language that pops to mind. I’m the Singaporean who had to learn proper etiquette during every-few-years visits: Take your grandmother by the hand or elbow whenever she’s walking, put food on her plate from the shared dishes as a sign of care, call each relative at the table by name—in order of rank—and tell them to “eat” before starting yourself, lest you seem rude.
Like other third culture kids, I always feel like an outsider; I don’t fully belong anywhere.
Of Asian-Americans and Bellydancing Wookiees
Invisible 3, June 2017
And now? I’m the bellydancer, firespinner, singer-songwriter, and nerd who designs and codes websites. I obsess with sparkles and sequins and makeup and then wrestle with merge conflicts in GitHub. I flirt with audiences and shimmy to Balkan brass bands and then debate backstage whether Daleks or Cylons would win in a fight. I sing 19th century French poetry layered on piano parts in 7/8 time inspired by traditional Chinese folk music, Americana, and jazz. I break stereotypes into tiny pieces and eat them like candy. I exist.
Action Figures, Asian-Americans, and the Tico Sisters
The Bias, February 2018
I’m writing this essay in the middle of a trip to Egypt, where everyone you encounter wants to know where the obvious travelers are from. Half of them are confused when I say the US, because they didn’t think Americans came with black hair and upturned eyes – the movies and TV shows we export almost entirely feature white people. As a group, Asian-Americans are sorely underrepresented: Only 1.4% of the lead characters in studio films released in 2014 were Asian even though we’re 5.6% of the US population. According to Annenberg School for Communication and Journalism at the University of Southern California, the majority of media does not feature any named or speaking Asian characters. Not a single one.
This has consequences inside the US as well: Waiting for a lunch order in Milwaukee, a man once asked me where I was from. “Chicago,” I replied. His response: “Oh, Shanghai? That’s great!”
Even at home, we are the perpetual foreigner.